Swallow (Pride)

A vertical cut down the threads of the fabric
I feel it get closer and cover my eyes
And I know that it's something I do out of habit
I'll look off the cliff but I don't want to die
I'll walk past the old institutions I went to when I was convinced that the world's in my hand
And I promise I'm sorry for all that you went through
It's painful to think back but I'll do what I can

You know
We all miss you so much
Is it selfish to think I could've helped it
You said
"If you need me to help just a text is enough"
But I'll shelf it and
We're all fragile and elfin
"The greatest of pressure is what I excel in" and
"If a human's immortal it just seeks an object to kill itself" with
It's a liе but I'll carry that weight 'til I

Drop off the face of thе earth
All these little old places have changed
Know I'll fall once I feel the rotation
And it's all just the same
If we're living in hell
But I can be who you blame if that in any way helps
And I tried but there's no way of stopping myself 'til I die
Then I'll drop all this weight in the well
It's all fine
If there's anything wrong I can't tell If cover my eyes
I'm just scared of myself
Felt the planets rotation right under my feet
If I swallow my pride can I finally be free
It repeats in my mind like a countdown from three
This is nothing at all like how I thought it would be

I don't wanna set the world on fire
I just want it to burn
And how could you act like you're setting my free
If I swallow my pride can I finally be