Suicidal tendencies

They’re just some tendencies
Yet i hate this life
I’m reliant like codependency
Never with consistency
Suffrage is coming endlessly
Nothings changed since it started
Depression presently

I call them tendencies
Maybe to hide their real thoughts
No need for stressing
I’ve tried it , the noose it caught knots
The pills will weak , threw em up
And started to see dots
I cut myself
Burned my body to see i’ve missed spots

I’m not promoting it
Cide and self harm are not it
The thoughts are normal
I’m sorry wish i could stop it
You need to think of your future more
Unlock it
You are the god of your life
You are a prophet

Been suicidal since 14 now 18
Sparked up since 15
The numb teens
I had this box of my memories , the shit shrunk
She got the fenty , chanel , i feel like kill bunk

Will she give me our children
Something to live for
Waking up to your face
My daily do adore
You call me your daddy
And baby and even mi amor
While fighting urges to end it
Up on the damn floor

Rigor mortis you stiff like back of tortoise
I want my life as gorgeous
These bars like earl in doris
Go hot like papa’s porridge
I found what rhymes with orange
Been trapped inside of storage
The back , its in the corner
You see

They’re just some tendencies
Yet i hate this life
I’m reliant like codependency
Never with consistency
Suffrage is coming endlessly
Nothings changed since it started
Depression presently

I call them tendencies
Maybe to hide their real thoughts
No need for stressing
I’ve tried it , the noose it caught knots
The pills will weak , threw em up
And started to see dots
I cut myself
Burned my body to see i’ve missed spots

I’m not promoting it
Cide and self harm are not it
The thoughts are normal
I’m sorry wish i could stop it
You need to think of your future more
Unlock it
You are the god of your life
You are a prophet

Yuhhh , u a real one if u here i love u fr