Depression diagnosis

[mr awsikee sir
I’m afraid
We have your diagnosis back sooner than expected
It says here that your chronically depressed]

Nah shit i knew that since thirteen
Stealing alc from my mother , hurt my spleen
Candy addict it numbed some like caffine
Slowly losing all youth joy , no hygiene

Fourteen just knew i was fucked up
Certain fantasies
Problem starting was stuck up
How i wondered it’d be as a grown up
Nothing mattered was breakup to breakup

Fifteen , that’s when i would learn more
Met my soulmate and my skin would meet gore
They not related but both i did look for
Impulsivе anger , the worse thoughts i’d ignorе

I hated sixteen , was useless and miserable
Teachers talked shit , still hated every principle
Did so much but i never was admissible
Didn’t know my potential , was an imbecile

Seventeen , i smoked away the problems
Not really they stacked up like columns
Too unstable , a force like obscurus
Regret the whole damn year
Fuck my goodness

Eighteen, just repeat the timelines
Need help so i speed dial the hotlines
Somethings missing
Directors cut and plot lines
Our inspirations , our leaders
In the chalk lines

[wow, what a memory you have, it seems you have a bit too much going on up there , and this being your first time ever in therapy , i’ll see you 3 times a week ,,
If no ones told you i’ll tell you
Everything is going to be okay
You are going to be okay , depressing thoughts may tell you otherwise but you have got to keep pushing]

Keep pushing ?
I’m pushing what
I’m just 6 feet of flesh
Water keeps me fresh
So i’m not smelling like carcass
Up in Jeff’s apartment
Yea depressions had the best of me
Write songs no parchment
Want a psych evaluation
After diagnosis
Much more is going wrong
Not talking scoliosis