Still Ain’t Shit

Whip broke again and I still ain't shit
You don't what I'd do to fucking make this
You don't know the road I've been down
Just to stay here, pick it, stick it, flip it
Then erase it, check back, try to relax
Don't mistake this as me coming clean
I ain't sayin' shit, filler for an empty
Room just to ease the pain in
Roll a couple, light 'em, get up for a minute
Now I'm changing every line I write
I despise 'em all, I can't stand this
Delete another song, write another bar
Just to hate it, work another day
Just to make enough to get what little I want
That ain't doing shit but rearranging
Every fucking thought
I should have pushed way back
I'm just hanging by the thread we've sewn together
To make this bed that we now lay in
Have you even been listening to a word I'm saying?
So many delays, I'm losing count, tractions fading
I'm blasted in the black, lustful wishes
Giving me a fucking heart attack
This the tenth joint I've smoked
In the past hour and a half
Fuck a fucking show, I just want my money back

Hop up in it, oh we back again
Round for round, I be smacking hits
Know you lames all fuck with this
Y'all be dropping duds but they fuck with it
Don't you care a bit, change things up
Maybe try to switch sticking to the script
Seems to work the best

Putting my heart in to be washed away
Waking up, checking the fucking plays
Lets see who ain't gone respond today
Another blog posting all the shit
That I fucking hate
What the fuck is it gonna take?
I love it and hate it all so much
I need a fucking break
Watching the people move up
Who I want to cave
Negative energy is all I can muster myself
To fucking bring
I don't see why I can't even think
A positive thought long enough to keep me sane