Once Striving For

Hours spent sleeping in
Day dreaming, stay dreaming
I'm on a stage, bruised and bleeding
The crowd won't stop cheering
I wake up ears still ringing
No one shows the love
I was once was striving for
Grew so bitter, I don't want this shit
Not no more, genuine folks
Who's passions endless
Few and far still here searching
But I think I'm uncompared
But no one knows yet
Give it time, shit will grow
Slow and steady, you know that
Just way off in the back
Everything you never wanted to show
You bring that shit out the only way you know
Never thought I'd say shit like this before
Never thought I would go and tell you
Something I could otherwise ignore

Let's face it, let's just face it
I'm always full of shit
You always knew this
There's nothing new about it

I'm always full of shit
There's nothing new about it
I'm always full of something
And it's full of regret and doubt
It's full of shit that I don't wanna fucking talk about
It's full of all the fucking memories
That I try to drown out
I drown this shit out
'Cause you know how I feel about it
You try to talk to me still
I always humor it a little
But you always push your boundaries
I'm trying to forget you
I just want to fucking go and forget you
How am I supposed to forget
Someone who never lets up?

Every thing that you say to me
I don't know how to respond
There's something in your voice
That tells me you will never move on
At least not for a bit
I'm full of shit, I never have either
You could move another fucking person
Out of your life
But make sure you try to have
Someone to fall back on
Because this bullshit you are spewing to me
I've heard it all before and I'm done