State of Mind

I feel like I'm falling behind
But I don't want to fall behind
I told myself it's all in my head
But I can't shake this lonely state of mind

I feel like you're so far ahead
I wish that I could get ahead
But I'm the only one holding me down
And I'll carry this weight, until I'm dead

My neck is sore, from my head hanging
My knees are weak, and my bones are aching
Because of everything, I wish I could change
But nothing's changing

I don't know how I will survive
I do not want to live if I can't feel alive
I try to shake, this lonely state of mind
But that's all I ever do is try

All I do is try

I feel like I am, someone else
I can't think
For myself