Losing Grip

I wish I could take most things back
And I wish it was me having my grandma's heart attack
I wish this world would just stay still
And I wish these foot prints weren't so hard to fill

I wish people would stop comparing me
To someone that I will never be

But if you don't get it, then just forget it

I wish that I could act smart
And I wish it was me having my grandpa's failing heart
I wish I did not let all my demons pull me apart
But it's all my fault I should of buried them from the start

Now I'm losing friends, as I start to slip
Losing sight, losing grip

But if you don't get it, then just forget it
Because I'll never know, how to grow
I'm old enough to change, I'm smart enough to know

I, try to see, but it seems to me
That my vision has gotten far to blurry
I try to speak, but these words I scream
Are cries for help but no one seems to worry
I try to run, from myself
But there's nowhere to run to so I'm in no hurry
And I try to say, that I'm breaking
But nobody believes me