Start of the Pandemic

[Intro]
I can't, look at myself
I been high for too long
I been high for too long

[Hook]
I been high since the start of the pandemic
Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic
All the songs I made started feeling so synthetic
Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics
There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity
Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy
Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy
Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry

[Verse]
Rain or shine
Yeah this my time
Wake up in the morning and I'm still feelin' the high
If I die tomorrow, at least I went and tried
Seeing numbers drop, it's been fuckin up my vibe
Not like I been losing, I'm only improving
Gatekeepers they got me locked in, I don't got to prove it
Listen to the music, I feel them all refusing
How you like me now? It's your fuckin ears I'm abusing
Shoutout to the pain
Shoutout to the stress
Shoutout to the world that left me clinically depressed
Truth is I been lonely cause my families a mess
At least I'm breaking cycles, I been doin' my damn best
I'm faded, it keeps me sedated
I've got some hurt in me, I want to take it and break it
And then I'll be the greatest, that's ever lived to paint it

[Hook]
I been high since the start of the pandemic
Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic
All the songs I made started feelin' so synthetic
Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics
There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity
Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy
Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy
Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry

[Verse 2]
She said I'm a charm
Well just know that these words could switch on you
I'm talking nice, but I'm better at being rude
Not seeing fruits for my labor done set a mood
And that's my fault for chasing dreams, I had no clue
I'm floating like a leaf in the air
Stuck in my ways, I'm living a nightmare
Stress been pulling out all of my hairs
And I didn't wanna go this far, but I'm there
Took my life away when I woke up
How many times have I done changed up?
I'm working harder than your daddy ever did
And that's a truth a lot of people never get
"You should post more"
"We need some more LuvA, you should promote more"
"Or maybe you could give time, you should devote more"
Or maybe I should show up at your fuckin' front door

[Hook]
I been high since the start of the pandemic
Couldn't even think straight man, I was so pathetic
All the songs I made started feelin' so synthetic
Couldn't find myself, I was lost with no aesthetics
There's a fine line between being a genius and insanity
Had to cross the line to find out I'm my biggest enemy
Had to look to myself cuz there was no other remedy
Smoking and drinking don't mix, was always bad at chemistry