Sometimes

[Verse 1: J O S H U A]
It's been a couple hours since you walked out the door
You finished half your vodka
You just came back for more
I spotted you last night, $20.94
And that's 'cause you drink like you're wealthy
And you beg like you're poor
You got the fun life
I got the Lord
And you got them habits
We can't afford
You got attention
I got ignored
I got the slander
You got adored
Your life is lavish
Hookups galore
My life's just average
I'm just a bore
Your life is peaceful
My life's a war
And I'm underwater while you're on the shore
But I can see the sadder side
When you thinking of suicide
When I'm feeling refreshed inside
And you feeling like death inside
Life and death don't coincide
So clearly all you're 'life''s a lie
Thus I should kill this jealous side
Before I mess around and die

[Pre-Chorus: J O S H U A]
So tell me how last night was wild
Tell me how I missed it
Don't you know by now that I'ma always be a misfit?
You think I'm missing out on all the lies that you listed?
Y'all should know by now that I was born to be a misfit

[Chorus: J O S H U A]
Sometimes I wish I was like you
I wish I did the things you do
Sometimes I wish that I could say
"Yo girl pour me a shot or two"
I wish my bed would rock with you
And I could dirty talk us through
And when you cop a handle
Sometimes I wish I drank vodka too
I wish that I could run and hide
And leave temptation undenied
Sometimes I wish that you were always right
And it was all a lie
I'm not the reason Jesus died
His death was never prophesied
But God made me and I divorced
And that's why He was crucified

[Verse 2: J O S H U A]
I'm frustrated by this
Lack of unity, the source of our immunity
Yet, yet we claim God to be the heart of our community
Man screw this mentality, reimagine humanity
Living without the vanity
Don't care if you a fan of me or not
Even if you like me a lot
Don't think that I can be caught
I simply cannot be bought
So cancel your plot
There's not a chance that you ever will capture my thought
You see I'm special
Can't be a wasted vessel
I've already got so many problems I don't want to wrestle
And I got all these values
What's the point if I don't live them?
God, I got so many gifts
And what's the point if I don't give them?
Gain the world and lose my soul?
Nah, Ive got too much to say
I'm highly blessed
I'm highly favored
Things are gonna go my way (huh)
I can beat a beat, make it chill, make it layback
I could find a needle if you hid it in a haystack
I could drop a needle on a vinyl make it playback
I could plan a heist on a bank, call it payback
I don't mind reppin' God, He and I go way back
I don't mind tellin' poison people they can stay back
I don't mind shutting out the words they say back
I don't mind using all the wisdom they lack
Don't be deceived
Caving to pressure won't give you relief
No one will ever respect our religion if we do not stand on the things we believe
And what do you aim to achieve?
Know that it's bait
He's trying to thieve
We've always been trying to fight this temptation to cave into pressure
Adam and Eve

[Pre-Chorus: J O S H U A]
So tell me how last night was wild
Tell me how I missed it
Don't you know by now that I'ma always be a misfit?
You think I'm missing out on all the lies that you listed?
Y'all should know by now that I was born to be a misfit

[Chorus: J O S H U A]
Sometimes I wish I was like you
I wish I did the things you do
Sometimes I wish that I could say
"Yo girl pour me a shot or two"
I wish my bed would rock with you
And I could dirty talk us through
And when you cop a handle
Sometimes I wish I drank vodka too
I wish that I could run and hide
And leave temptation undenied
Sometimes I wish that you were always right
And it was all a lie
I'm not the reason Jesus died
His death was never prophesied
But God made me and I divorced
And that's why He was crucified