Somber soul

[Verse]
Always feelin’ down, I’m a somber soul
Love fucked me up, I use to have a heart of gold
Now I’m turnin’ into someone I don’t even know
I’m just existin’ on this planet, goin’ with the flow
Good times are hard to come by, I hardly ever see ‘em
I don’t got no friends either, I guess I don’t need ‘em
Always with my inner demons, nobody can see ‘em
I’m lonely, all my sad thoughts stripped away my freedom
Smokin’ ’til I can’t feel, I know that I can’t heal
I already tried that piece of mind shit, it’s not real
I just can’t rely on any lies now, my fate’s sealed
Stuck in my own ways, I’m held back by my ideals
Self destructive, I’m aware of that but that’s just who I am
I feel like Heaven’s just a concept people made up, it’s a scam
I wish that I could put blind faith in it, I’m sorry but I can’t
I know I’m different, I’m not normal but I just don’t give a damn