Seven Days

I met her on the internet
A tender mom of two
Sent emails back and forth
A couple photos too

And she could tell that I was hurt
She saw my frozen smile
Asked what was going wrong
So I wrote with teary eyes

I lie here in my bed
So no one else can see
The monster that I have become
A sad anomaly

I think my mind is broken
I don't doubt I’m unhinged
I fell deep into darkness
Now my weeks are looking grim

The first day cuts me to the bone
The second leaves a bruise
The third day I wish I was dead
The fourth day I'm confused
And when the fifth and sixth day come
I've got no damn to give
But the seventh day still comes around
And I go through it all again

I thought I might have scared her off
Went days with no reply
Weeks later she responded
To my own surprise

She said it’s okay I've been there too
It's just a part of life
I fell deep into darkness but
Somehow I still survived

She said
The first year cut me to the bone
The second left a bruise
And dark thoughts clouded up my mind
The third and fourth years too
But when the fifth and sixth years came
I saw a little light
In seven years you'll realize
Sometimes it just takes time

To be honest since we talked
I'm not much better yet
But maybe that's all just because
I'm only a few years in

But her words reside deep in my mind
Like echoes in the well
So when the week gets difficult
I try to tell myself

The first day cuts me to the bone
The second leaves a bruise
The third day I'm so over it
The fourth day I’m confused
But when the fifth and sixth day pass
I might see sparks of hope
I strive to keep on living
Seven days a week so I’ll know