If This Was For The Best

I send you little texts to gauge your interest
But when we talk I can tell there’s nothing left here
It’s crazy how different it’s been for you and me
I’m still chained to you but you’ve been set free

I think they call it maladaptive daydreaming
But it’s better than a drink and overthinking
I lie in bed and act like nothing ever had to end
I trace my pillow as if it was your skin

So tell me
How do I get by
‘Cause now I wander in the night
I’m like a little lost child
Without you near

I’m crying rivers running miles
I hide a frown in every smile
If this was for the best
How come it doesn’t feel like it

You’d be proud to know I’ve been getting out the house more
To see the sights we missed when I was still yours
But sometimes it’ll hit me like a crashing aero plane
I’m all alone and everything has changed

So tell me
How do I get by
‘Cause now I wander in the night
I’m like a little lost child
Without you near

I’m crying rivers running miles
I hide a frown in every smile
If this was for the best
How come it doesn’t feel like it

I spend the better half of the day sleeping
Maybe then I’ll see you in my dreams yeah
Even though I know it’s just a matter of time
’Til I wake up to the nightmare I call life

It’s crazy how different it’s been for you and me
I’m still chained to you but you’ve been set free