sertraline

[Intro]
Take your meds

[Hook]
Yeah, so faded off the shit
Gold plated in the system
Pro caution in the wind
Drove off it
I drove off, went through the window
I seen so many people grow up and get a band, though

[Verse 1]
It's a handful addicted to the cancer
I lost 20 pounds and gained 50 in a damn month
Look at my niece, I try to be that kid's example or lead her to the answers
Cause we don't get no peace to press, too weak from stress and Hell, it's no relief
Get myself sober, g
Plus they sells, it's a Hell over me
I took a minute, get the pills to go to sleep
Woke up breathing so heavy, I had [?]
I may never know
Compete the true, it seems
And they ain't happy when I'm up
It doesn't matter if it's tough
You ducking cash and getting muck
I'm running backwards to the drugs
I'm laughing up the gas inside the truck
Disaster struck and that's just what I come to know, I'm numb to cold
Never dissed Zay in that song, I dissed me
I don't want beef, my aiming was wrong
It was the hating that pawned from my own self
Nobody knows I played for so long, I am broke now
Not even close
And it's all love til it's snot popping
Get my thoughts some progress, I'm not conscious of the problem
I was so high
Hit the rock bottom of the bottle, then my soul fly
This is God's model that I'm on, though

[Hook]
Yeah, I'm so faded off the shit
Gold plated in the system
Throw caution to the wind
Drove off it
I drove off, went through the window
I seen so many people grow up and get a band, bro
Yeah
Yeah

[Verse 2]
I don't wanna be intoxicated anymore
I'm laying on the floor, thoughts racing out of order
Praying that I'm sober, not a thing is real to me
Bring me back, I'm 'bout to stop my breathing, heal me please

[Outro: Person 1, Person 2, Neonbitch]
You know it's funny, I was talking to the guy
[?]
Reconciliation
[?]
Through reconciling off that I was in this very successful place but the emotional content of it didn't feel anything like what I imagined success should feel like
So what is success?
Success is what you make it
I thought a lot about how to end this
And I came to the conclusion that I had to end it the way I started it: by myself
No instrumentals, no rapping, no bullshit
I fear a lot of things, mostly change
But I do fear success
I fear both becoming successful, and never reaching that level of success which I wish to gain
Letting people down, letting myself down
But at the end of the day, the numbers are just the numbers
And at the end of the day, all that you're left with is yourself
And thats how I started to measure success
At the end of the day just before I sleep, thinking to myself
Was I a good human being today, or was I just as bad as yesterday?
Did I help someone today, or did I avoid my problems just the same as I always have?
And shit, I'm no teacher
I don't mean to use big words
Act like I'm smarter than the next man
Act like I'm more intelligent
I just think we all get caught up in clout
And we all get caught up in numbers
And we use those numbers to measure our success
To measure how good of a person we are
And that's what it's become
We all got addictions
You'd be lying if you told me you didn't
I been tryna fight mine
And I been trying to explain mine through this album
Through this collection of songs
Cause it's therapeutic in a sense
I hope I can convey it the right way
And maybe even help you understand your own self and your own addictions
And if not, I hope you're atleast able to vibe to it
Because sometimes that's all we can do
Goodbye now, sleep good