September Gave Us Awkwardness, October Gave Me Nothing

Thousand twinkling lights
In a September night sky
Makes a heart filled with void remembers the
Aching
Of a loss
Five years ago

And there you stood
Just like a picture, it seemed to me
And there you stood
The wind had gripped your pale hair and also caught my heart
And everything I didn't say echoes forever
You never saw how much you hurt me, I guess

But then again
Thousand twinkling lights
In a September night sky
Makes my heart slowly wander and stumbles across
The aching
Of a loss
Two years ago
And the words as follow:

"I can't help that
I still miss those nights
We spent speaking in silence"
"I can't help that
I still miss those nights
We spent speaking in silence"
"I can't help that
I still miss those nights
We spent speaking in silence"

I've been waiting so long for a moment when I don't feel this way, I've been waiting for a moment when I no longer feel trapped inside this hollow body, when I'm at ease

All this years I've told myself to wait for it, wait for it
Maybe I'll feel better if I just wait for it, wait for it
Whenever you're around, I shut my eyes and wait for it, wait for it
I hope and wait, I wait for it, wait for it
Wait for it, wait for it
Wait, wait

But what if the moment never comes?
Will I be left with all my thoughts?
What if I never can let go?
Will I ever get over you?

Will I ever?