Scratches

Is it my turn now?
Should I be ready to go?
When I look back asking myself these questions
Oh lord, I just didn’t know
The value of it all
All the joy in this world
I never saw the sunlight like I do now
Even the rain I’d miss so much, somehow
Every tiny drop reminds me
There is something worth fighting
But I gave up, just did not know that I was enough, oh
Please don’t let them fool you too
Into thinking you’re better buried deep down in the ground
Than just being you
No one knows what you’ve been through
And all they’re gonna find of me are the
Scratch marks in my coffin
Everything I ever did
Will be long lost and forgotten
Everything I worked for turns to dust
My world shatters and yours goes on
I had so much left to say
Why did I chase my demons down this way?
Don’t know what got into me
Maybe it was the goddamn loneliness
I am a monster that I tried to fight til the bitter end
But my sword’s always been blunt when it’s not pointing my way
I swear I’ll never forget the tears that I used
To water the life that surrounds me
I dried it all out, I am so sorry for that too
But I never knew what was the right thing to do
I reckon I still don’t know, but do you?
You see, I gave up
If only I’d known that I was enough, oh
All the bridges I could’ve built
Blood didn’t need to be spilled
Please know that someone loves you
But no one will ever know what you’ve put yourself through
And all they’re gonna find of me are the
Scratch marks in my coffin
Everything I ever did
Will be long lost and forgotten
Everything I worked for turns to dust
My world shatters and yours goes on
I had so much left to say
Why did I chase my demons down this way?