Cutting Onions

Oh, I can't deny
I've been through a quite rough time
But I keep on going
I keep on floating as good as I can
Oh, I don't wanna look back
But I also don't wanna stay in the present
Cause everything's rumbling
My thoughts, they are tumbling out of my messed up head

And I'm trying to keep my shit together
But everything's easier said than done
And I wish my brain would just shut the fuck up
And let me be, be

But I keep on cutting onions every damn where I go
And I'm trying to get them out but the tears, they won’t fall
And I put my finger in my eye and I just wanna cry
But I don't feel anything but cold
But I keep on cutting onions and I disappoint them all

Oh, I might be blind
Cause people say I have a wonderful life
And they are so right but I just don't know why
I'm not even able to smile
Oh, I just wanna be finally happy
But I set myself goals that I know I can’t fulfil
And I take all the disappointment to the grave with me

And I'm trying to keep my shit together
So I won't bother my friends or family
But apparently running away from your problems
Doesn't make them go away, away

But I keep on cutting onions every damn where I go
And I'm trying to get them out but the tears, they won’t fall
And I put my finger in my eye and I just wanna cry
But I don't feel anything but cold
But I keep on cutting onions and I disappoint them all

Oh, do you know how it must feel
When you keep on cutting onions and chilies?
Over and over again, you rub them in your eyes
But you don't feel anything
You don't feel anything [x3]

Oh, do you know how it must feel
When you keep on cutting onions and chilies?
Over and over again, you rub them in your eyes
But you don't feel anything
You don't feel anything [x3]

But I keep on cutting onions every damn where I go
And I'm trying to get them out but the tears, they won’t fall
And I put my finger in my eye and I just wanna cry
But I don't feel anything but cold
But I keep on cutting onions and I disappoint them all