​roses for you (demo)

[Verse]
Red roses
On the grave
Of the person
I mourn the most
When I see you in the night
And every time I close my eyes
You're the one who never leave me be
Or let me sleep at night
I wish I could have saved you
Even though I was just a kid back then
Maybe there’s something I could've done
I wish I could've saved you
I wish I could’ve helped you
With what evеr you were dealing with
I think you might bе the reason
I have abandonment problems
I'm afraid of being alone in this world
I just want someone there to comfort me
Like the way you never did
But you probably should
Why, why'd you have to leave me there alone
You didn't know if I could take it or not
But you still took the chance
Because you thought I was strong
Well, fuck...
I'm not so strong anymore
I'm beginning to break because of
Everything that's been through
My back and on my shoulders
I don't think I can take it anymore
This stress is about to make me crack
And then I’ll fall into pieces
In the cold crying to you
But you won’t be there for me anymore
Why'd you have to leave me
I can’t do it on my own anymore
I'm trying to find someone to help me
But there's no one there
No one there
No one was there like you were to me
There are some nights I wish
I could just see what going through your mind
When you threw me out
I wish I could've been good enough for you
But I guess I wasn’t
Now everyday I wake up feeling like
Who's the next person I'm gonna disappoint today
Who am I not gonna be able to live up to
What kind of standards am I gonna not reach today
I'm gonna keep failing 'til I fall apart into pieces
Is this what the world wants from me?
Just a piece of garbage throw out
I probably shouldn't have survived
Wish I would have died back then
Before all this shit happened
And I wouldn't have to deal with the
Consequences of all my actions
And I could've just died before I even tried