​broken angel

I wake up to your face, glad you're in a better place
Some nights I really miss you but there's nothing I can do
'Cause you're gone for good
Hide my tears when I pull up my hood
When you left, it put a hole in my chest
But this kind of pain was different from the rest
I'm not used to my heart feeling idle
Feel the same as the day I lost my idol
Rest easy triple X, you'll live forever
Through years of smiles and bad weather
I won't forget the man who faced the fall
But the pain of him didn't cause it all
Feel lost and misplaced and everything I do is a waste
Wander this earth alone waiting for an answer to be shown
But I'm tired of these quests, I'm weak and need to rest
But I wait and my head freaks
They won't stop until my vein leaks
I'm sick of this demon who's in control
Put a gun to my head and make a bullet hole
Grab my sheets and make a noose, tie it tight so I don't fall loose
Sink into my skin and kill my soul within
Anything to get me out of this death is my only wish
Maybe if I had someone by my side
But everyone ran and cried
I gave them my all but now they never call
Figured I might as well be alone now and never say a wedding vow
And get stuck in a web of love
Save them the pain of when I fly above
Except I won't make it to heaven
Forgot the sins of 7
So I sit and rot in hell, burning in my fiery cell
Where else would a soul like mine go?
No one knows the real me, it's all a show
Hid myself from everyone
It doesn't matter because what's done is done
Maybe next time I'll do better
And not go out with my final words on a letter