right by my lonesome

[Intro]
I can't close my eyes 'cause of you (autrioly)

[Verse 1]
Look, I've been fighting, and crying, so sick of trying
I'm right by my lonesome, with no one to hold me when I feel like I'm dying
I bet you my own partner thinks I'm worthless, and I'm so sick of no one prying
Me, and not wanting me to talk 'bout how I ain't wanna be alive
I'm sick of the feeling like I'm dyin' inside
I'm sick of the pain, I'm goin' insane, and all I can do is try
I wanna hold someone, want to hold 'em as they let me cry
But it's not possible, it's not like anyone wants me to be alive
I just got a question, babe, could you hold me tonight?
I just need to be in someone's arms, it makes me feel safe
And I only feel safe in these arms of yours, yeah, that's the only place

[Chorus]
I can't seem to get through it
I'm sick of hurtin' and ain't know how to do it
I'm right here, by my lonesome
I just want to feel some
I can't close my eyes (autrioly)

[Verse 2]
Been feelin' this hurt, and I don't know what my worth is
Babe, I need you here, need to let me know I ain't worthless
I need you to help me on my mission to find a purpose
This life, it made me feel worthless, please, let me know I'm worth it
I'm sick of baggage, I'm sick of this hurtin'
Fuck this life that I'm livin', babe, I can't hold on much longer
You need someone better, need someone who's stronger
Been feelin' hurt so long, callin' it long-hurt
Been tryin' not to get high, but it's the only thing that helps
Especially in all of the times I have been hatin' myself
Please don't leave me all alone
Babe, please, don't leave me all on my own
I can't do it by myself, I need to be in your arms
I'm sick of all of this bullshit, the times have been way too hard
It's been this way since 2017, you want to fuckin' see a better me?
Well, too bad, I've been sittin' here, beggin' on my knees
Hoping to God that someone will hear my plead, fuck