not gon’ be okay...

[Intro]
Nah, nah, it's not gon' be okay
Not gon' be

[Verse 1]
Look, sick of the pain, take all of it away
Out of my head, away from my brain
I wanna be in your arms, only place I can feel safe
I need to get high to be in the right head space
Scream so loud, no one hears a thing, like I'm in space
Wanna decay, no, I'm not gon' be 'kay, it's hard every single day
'Specially when I'm not with you, only feel okay when I'm with you
Nah, I would never ditch you, but I always miss you
Can't feel better without you, always feel lesser without you
I always feel sorry to doubt you, but just know, hun, I'd never out you
I'm sorry if this hurts to hear, please, wipe away my tears
Please, help me get over my fears, please, tell me you'll always be here
And help me, I'm so sad, I can't even cheer

[Chorus]
Please, hear what I've got to say, don't let me go and decay!
I'm trying so hard to fight the pain!
I don't have to guess, it's not gon' okay!
I love you, and I want to stay with you forever, but it's not gon' be okay
Please, hear what I've got to say, don't let me go and decay!
I'm trying so hard to fight the pain!
I don't have to guess, it's not gon' okay!
I love you, and I want to stay with you forever, but it's not gon' be okay

[Post-Chorus]
Okay!
Not gon' be okay

[Verse 2]
Please, babe, hold me tonight, please, babe, hold me real tight
Please, just help me fight
All the pain, I'm goin' insane
I want to die, don't wanna be alive
I feel like no one would care if I end my life
Pick up the pen, and write
Feeling down here, I'm always cryin', but there ain't no tears
I wanna get over my fears
Wanna get through my pain, put a bullet in my brain
Sick of feeling so damn insane
I'm a madman, who's mad, man
They always say, "the pain is fake, you can't back that!"
But truth it, I can, don't like to talk about it, it's annoying, man
So, get off my back, I'ma sit here and rap, like damn
Ben, you always make me feel like the man
But i'm the same one who hates himself, goddamn

[Chorus]
Please, hear what I've got to say, don't let me go and decay!
I'm trying so hard to fight the pain!
I don't have to guess, it's not gon' okay!
I love you, and I want to stay with you forever, but it's not gon' be okay
Please, hear what I've got to say, don't let me go and decay!
I'm trying so hard to fight the pain!
I don't have to guess, it's not gon' okay!
I love you, and I want to stay with you forever, but it's not gon' be okay

[Outro]
Not gon' be okay, not gon' be okay
Not gon'- fuck