Positive, Kay?

[Pip Skid]
It's hard to find merit in 2003
Probably the worst year that ever happened to me
If you happened to be, around when I was down
Then you saw all the batches of kittens I had to drown
On some next shit
More than a pessimist
Fight the bright side, yeah I'm like the best at this
Made a mess of this, dreadfully sad
When some shit stick tells me things it ain't that bad
Never had a plan A, what's a plan B?
When it comes to the future for P, I can't see
Pass a tip of resin let it scrape from my pipe
I'm ugly like a gang of skyscrapers at night
The thought of taking my life has been entertained
Too much to explain the extent of the pain
Got love for the people who told me to keep my head up
It's hard to make sense of the good when you're so fed up