Playing Games

I have often been misleading
Handing out impressions that aren't me
Desperately projecting
Someone I've hardly known
But give the people what they want to see
I have often tried to hide it
Preferring just to float in fantasy
Foolishly believing
That despair will run its course
And leave in some state of ecstasy

But, Lord, I know that playing games
Will lead to nothing
Oh, that You're not so impressed
With all the show
What You desire most of me
Is that my hеart is clean
That what I say is what I really mean

So many timеs I've borrowed thoughts of others
Not seeking out the truth reserved for me
I'd rather take the easy road
Than struggle through the pain
But emptiness pursues me constantly
So, if living old clichés makes life so hopeless
Why, in heaven's name, do I go on?
It seems like all the games I play
Just end how they began
'Cause you can't gamble life when life is gone

But, Lord, I know that playing games
Will lead to nothing
Oh, that You're not so impressed
With all the show
So, help me tear away the pride
That slowly grows with every lie
Give me strength to start again
To not look back at where I've been

I just want to know You, Lord
To know You better than I did before
(I just want to know You better)
(Better than I ever did before)
Better than before
Now I'm ready, Lord, to do some leading
Free to let Your light shine out of me