Novocaine (Original)

[Verse 1]
Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it
When you're heartbroken, you're scarred and you can't stitch it
There's somethin’ missin’ in me, a space that I can't fill in
There's got to be an answer out there but what is it?
I'm second guessin’ everything I feel inside within
I'm insecure, I'm sad, I'm not comfortable in my skin
I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin
Some say better days are ahead but I'm not convincеd
I lost everything I had, therе's nothing left to obtain
I'm followed by grey clouds, I'm over this shit, I'm drained
Drownin’ in emotions, I'm drenched in December rain
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
Pathetic but poetic, I'm irrelevant to most
All I need is anaesthetics then I'll be okay to go
Give me everythin’ you got, I don't care if I overdose
Cuz I'll be a lost cause until I'm decomposed

[Chorus]
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment, I got nothin’ left to give
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine

[Verse 2]
Time is tickin’, what's the difference If I wanna end it sooner
Losin' interest, I don't listen, I don't think about the future
I'm psychotic, real talk, I got a twisted sense of humor
Man I wish that I was cooler but I'm just a fuckin' loser
Quit misleadin’ me repeatedly and trickin’ me with words
They deceive me, now they leavin’ me, they kick me to the curb
If I cut myself cuz of ‘em, they won't even be concerned
That is no exaggeration, I just speak what I observe

[Chorus]
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment, I got nothin’ left to give
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine