Novocaine

[Verse 1]
Every night the light fades, my happiness goes with it
When you're heartbroken, you're scarred and you can't stitch it
There's something missing in me, a space that I can't fill in
There's got to be an answer out there but what is it?
I'm second guessing everything I feel inside within
I'm insecure, I'm sad, I'm not comfortable in my skin
I never chose to be me or live in this life of sin
Some say better days are ahead but I'm not convinced
I lost everything I had, there's nothing left to obtain
I'm followed by grey clouds, I'm over this shit, I'm drained
Drowning in emotions, I'm drenched in December rain
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
Pathetic but poetic, I'm irrelevant to most
All I need is anaesthetics then I'll be okay to go
Give me everything you got, I don't care if I overdose
Cuz I'll be a lost cause until I'm decomposed

[Chorus]
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment, I got nothing left to give
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine

[Verse 2]
Time is ticking, what's the difference If I wanna end it sooner
Losin' interest, I don't listen, I don't think about the future
I'm psychotic, real talk, I got a twisted sense of humor
Man I wish that I was cooler but I'm just a fuckin' loser
Quit misleading me repeatedly and tricking me with words
They deceive me, now they leaving me, they kick me to the curb
If I cut myself cuz of them, they won't even be concerned
That is no exaggeration, I just speak what I observe

[Chorus]
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
God I might be finished, I don't think I wanna live
I wonder what my purpose is, I wonder what it is
I'm a disappointment, I got nothing left to give
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
You don't know this feeling, you and me are not the same
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine
I'll find a way to numb the pain, Novocaine