NEVERLOVE

I see you, I see it all
I feel you, this pain it won’t leave me alone
Building up, building up, just to fall down
I pray when my time comes, my bodies not found

Linger here a bit, losing track of days, always sleep
Lost my sense of reality to an early grave

Cus I see you, I see it all
I feel you, this pain it won’t leave me alone

Cus I see you, I see it all
Cus I feel you, this pain it won’t leave me alone

Takin chances, I see you there dancing
Open me, haunt me, looking down slowly
Kiss me on the lips, say im all fine, choking
Holding onto tears, tell me why am I so lonely

So tell my friends im not ok but they don’t ever listеn
Hold me down closely and say its love im missing
If I could еver change my ways, you know I really would
But I don’t know where to start, I didn’t think I could

Im the liar on the wall, maybe im the one who wants to fall
Suicidal tendencies linger in the shadows
Im over trying to overdose on things I couldn’t be
So im drowning now in opiates, you don’t wanna save me

Who knew self-hate could be such a beautiful thing
Grabbing on my arms, scratching down until they just bleed
But at least its something
At least it’s something I feel

Cus there’s the ghost of you that comes through the window
I feel your hand on my cheek, you say you gotta go
I’ve never felt this sorry before
It’s like your is straight hands through my chest ripping at my soul more

Remember when you couldn’t get out of bed
This illness called depression filled your head and left you drowning with dread
You said to me you never felt this weak
You used to leave the noose on your fan and promise that you’d never would leave

But you did, but you did, yeah no your gone
It’s getting cold, it’s getting cold now that im alone
It makes me sick knowing that I wasn’t there for you
How do I live when I know I let you down, it’s true

Sick disgusted to my stomach
Breaking down choking on vomit
Will you tell me how to change
Won’t you come down and take me away

Im the liar on the wall, maybe im the one who wants to fall
Suicidal tendencies linger in the shadows
Im over trying to overdose on things I couldn’t be
So im drowning now in opiates, you don’t wanna save me

Who knew self-hate could be such a beautiful thing
Grabbing on my arms, scratching down until they just bleed
But at least its something
At least it’s something I feel