My Apparition

Take a moment, breathe it in
For all of this I'll soon forget

I know I'm only human
The excuse I'm always using to remain the same
Free from change, avoiding situations perceived as pain
I'll take blame for it all
Wish I listened to you from the start all along

Comatose as I watch the ceiling spin
Lost in dreams of places I've never been
More and more I try to control these thoughts
Telling the ones I love most I don't want to talk

Pick myself up off the floor
Tell myself I'm worth much more
Always looking for the answer
When it's right in front of me
I'd rather be left ignored

Fighting to get outside myself
Find hope in someone else
Yes I heard you on that night
I was trying to say goodbye
You held me close
You wouldn't let me go
All of my faults on display for you to know
But would you love my ghost?

Comatose as I watch the ceiling spin
(watching your world crumble before your eyes)
Lost in dreams of places I've never been
(waiting for the moment I say I'm fine)
More and more I try to control these thoughts
(when will the cycle end?)
Telling the ones I love most I don't want to talk
Pick myself up off the floor
Tell myself I'm worth much more
Always looking for the answer
When it's right in front of me
The truth no longer can I ignore