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[Verse]
Yeah, feels like I’m holding my breath
Shouts to my ex teaching me how to reflect
Throwing her hands like she mad at the ref
We're not close when I text, I been at coping at best if I’m honest
You're not why I moved to the city, I’m sorry
It's somebody stopping me focusing properly
I wasn’t ready for anything you could have told me, I hope that we could have been real
Maybe if I keep my troubles around me you’ll never see how much they’re holding me still
I broke down on the pavement, I prayed you could have saved me
I know now why it's raining

[Bridge]
You keep me still, I don’t owe you that
(I don't owe you that, I don't owe you that)
You keep me still, I don’t owe you that
You keep me still, I don’t owe you that
(I don't owe you that, I don't owe you that)
You keep me still, I don’t owe you that

[Breakdown]
You told me you were listening, you told me you were listening
You keep me still, I don’t owe you that
Try keep holding back, I don’t get me back
I fall back, maybe we’ll be fine
I waste all my time, wake up next to me

I can barely breathe, I can’t stand myself
Fall right back asleep, I don’t owe you that
You heard everything, don’t keep holding back
Get me back to me

You told me you were listening

You keep me still, I don’t owe you that
Try keep holding back, I don’t get me back
[?]
Maybe we’ll be fine, I waste all my time, wake up next to me

You told me you were listening, you told me you were listening
I can barely breathe, I can’t stand myself
Fall right back asleep, I don’t owe you that
You’re still everything, try keep holding back
Get me back to me

Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me
Wake up next to me, fall back asleep with me

"I-I-I barely made it back to the edge of the town that I was staying in and I just fell to the ground and actually I was, I was really close to where my friend was working at that time and I just fell to the ground in pieces. And I just couldn’t for the life of me understand what I was supposed to do with the way I was feeling. I couldn’t comprehend whether I was supposed to feel absolutely everything or nothing at all. And I, I truly believed up until that point that the, the very little I understood about this life was that in this emotional spectrum that we could feel I, I wanted to feel as low as I could possibly ever feel in order to appreciate a-a-as, as happy as I could possibly ever be. I’d spend all my time focusing on both ends of the spectrum and I just didn’t know what to do when I found nothing."