Meditation, Pt. 2

[Intro]
And save your goodbyes to the morning light, yeah
But don't let me be lonely tonight

[Verse 1]
All my trials and tribulations
I finally feel like I'm not impatient
Remember I couldn't deal with waitin'
Now I think it's worth it, all the things I'm anticipatin'
I've been afraid of the dark, now I feel courageous
I got a taste of the light, now it feel contagious
I've been anointed, I'm chosen, I feel like David
Can't wait 'til my family embrace it, we just on different pages
Lindsay got a reason to hate me, can't even lie
I told her so many lies, she was in the blind
I could have done much better when she was mine
But the one thing that does heal is time
Remember back when she gave me reasons to live
The type of heart that she has, I know she'll forgive
Ain't no reason now for us to just pretend
But I have faith for some day that we could be friends
Before I lost my great-grandmother, I had a vision
I'm just glad before she passed, I got to visit
It's almost like You was tellin' me this was written
You sent so many signs that I had to make a decision
I've been so amazed by the things that you've been revealin'
On 1/11, you blessed me with all my siblings
Shout out Xavier, Toya, Shanda, and Faith
Melle Jonne I be talking to every day
Me and my biological father finally chattin'
I've been sugarcoatin' my feelings about his absence
Regardless of his actions, I'm actin' like it ain't happen
You wouldn't send him here just for me to be mad at him
I swear to You, I keep tryin' hard wit' my mama
It's almost like she adapted to our drama
I can't change none of my actions from our past
So when it comes to her, we ain't goin' anywhere fast
I don't even know where I really stand wit' my dad
But I just know that he the only reason I'm a man
And when it comes to Jordan, all I could do is get sad
Every day I pray that he don't forget I'm his dad
Feel sorry for people who holdin' things over my head
I can't keep explainin' to them that that person dead
I told God that I promise to look ahead
And I ain't turnin' back on not one thing that I said

[Chorus]
Yeah
And I don't need no medication
I just need some meditation
This right here's my, my dedication
This gon' be my revelation