Lost my crown

[verse 1]
Living like I know what I wanna do with my life, Living like I don't hear my momma crying at night my daddy write us letters but he only wrote us twice, and I ain't seen him in 11 years

[verse 2]
And it ain’t siting with me right remembering the fights I remember like, they were bad dreams, if I tell you bout my story I bet you forget l'm 14, I pray more than l eat cause I take anything they give me

[verse 3]
And I talk to someone there but I don't know why he's still with me. This that pain yeah, I used to cravе recognition I don't care about the famе now I lost my best friend and it's like nothing ain't the same now, I lost him and it hurt me, so l'm really out my brain now, I need confidence looking in the mirror tryna find myself, cause all these boys tell me l'm pretty

[verse 4]
Then they knock me down and my mom call me a queen I think I lost my crown cause I pretend I love myself, cause I don't love myself and it get real deep, you don't feel what I be saying You just hear me, they know I spit that real so now they fear me, but a million and one raps still couldn't heal me and thats real