ITS ALL MY FAULT

Let me tell you a story about my life one time
They think just cause I got some money that my life just fine
But I swear to god you'll never get the heights I climb
Just to get up to the mic and put my life online

When I was 7 to 8, my mother worked a lot
It hurt to watch, home alone ain't feel like I was worth a lot
Pulled up to the babysitter crib
She lived a couple blocks pretty close to where I lived
Every morning when I went she touched and kissed up on my ribs
Touched me every single place and got paid to do this shit
And I was younger I liked it I didn't know any better
Secret kept away from momma so I never did tell her
All through the years my body fucked up wear the grief on my sweater
I never get it how a person fucked my mental forever
In school I used to get violent with all the other kids
I grew up seeing people down while others never did
So I gave my all creating another me just to fit in
But I never could, my nigga I was just a kid

Flashback to my life as a teen
I hated everybody, walked around fucking mean
I used to run away, just to chase all my dreams
But it never mattered, cause I broke at the seams
Time after time people fucking with my heart
Draining all my youth all the color going dark
Had to struggle hard never thought I'd make it far
He just wanted love never drinks at the bar
I felt so distant from everybody else
Thought it was my attitude but I just needed help
Crying out suicide attempts with a belt
Cuts on my wrist and sad was all I felt
And then my uncle died
And people kept dying
Dropping out my life like flies still crying
Still I'm working day to day suffering in silence
Growing up at twenty-two I never had guidance

Maybe I been the problem
Maybe it's all my fault
Maybe it's better off when I'm not here at all (at all)
Maybe I been the problem
Maybe it's all my fault
Maybe it's better off when I'm not here at all (at all)