If I’m Alright

Thought of you today. I remembered everything
Chased those thoughts away. It's no good remembering
Are your thoughts of me only black, never lively or bright?
And do you ever wonder if I'm doing alright?

Sat alone for hours, contemplating nothing new
Finally took a shower. The smell of lavender shampoo
Took me back to your door on a happier day
And made me hope that, in your heart, you hope I'm okay

I can't believe how fast the years have tumbled by
Too late to learn my lesson now. It's too late to try
To make it up to you. I can't undo the worst I've done
But I can't let regret define me

Guess that's why I'm here. Thanks for picking up the phone
Your voice so close to my ear somehow makes me more alone
So I'll get to the point, the reason I called
To ask you, "Do you ever hope I'm happy at all?"

And I'm not trying to find a way to set things right;
Just some peace of mind before I say goodnight
Has retrospect been my friend? Has it softened your gaze?
And now and then, do you wonder what I'm up to these days?

Or are thoughts of me only black, never lively or bright?
And do you ever wonder how I'm doing
Wonder what I'm going through, and
Do you ever want to know if I'm alright?