Boiler Room

Flipped the coin. Rolled the bones. I dreamed what I dreamed then I woke up alone
That’s just how it is in the boiler room where the fire gets fed. Will it light up my will, or destroy me instead?

There’s no way to know when the monster’s right outside the door
Don’t matter anymore what’s real and what’s true
When I am not allowed to sort it out with you

I’ve always told you that providence is just a tool used by righteous to rule the fool
I’ve never believed in the “meant to be” or the “evermore.” Fate is capricious and luck is a whore

So how did I wind up so overwhelmed, and so surprised
So raw, and so unwise? It’s not like me at all
When did I take up with the fools? I don’t recall

Eons pass, no one has clue about why we’re still here
Poets preach, and scholars teach, but it never gets more clear
And still we order food in our restaurants, and tell our children that everything’s alright

But right here tonight, there is you and me, and we’re too smart to let fear of everything tear us apart
No we’re not in love. We’re the best of friends. Aw, ain’t that sweet? A saccharin win from the jaws of defeat

But I must repeat, the monster’s right outside the door
Don’t matter anymore what’s real and what’s true
When I am not allowed to sort it out with you

So how did I wind up so overwhelmed, and so surprised
So raw, and so unwise? It’s not like me at all
When did I take up with the fools? When did they change up all the rules?
When did the climate grow so cruel? I don’t recall

Wind up the clock. Watch the decades roll by. No, this is not a real emotion. Something’s sticking in my eye
Baby I know that the show didn’t end like you wanted. The seats are hard as iron, and the theatre’s haunted
You expected so much more when you walked in the door than a promise, and some jewelry, and a weak metaphor
And this Adventure Boy, he ain’t a hero at all. He doesn’t do the heavy lifting. Doesn’t come when you call
He just believes, and he dreams, and he calls you his girl
This is a stupid world. This is a really stupid world
Don’t you forget it. It’ll tell you you’ve got time. Put you to sleep if you let it……