I Fell Apart

[Verse 1]

I fell apart
And Time moved on
If you think that you matter
Well you're probably wrong
You're not the center of the universe all along
So fuck you and your bullshit, it'll soon be gone
I remind myself daily to put other people first
No matter how much it hurts, it's never worth the worst
You never feel the burns
Of losing friends in the works
No amends in the works, and no bends in the words
I fell apart, and got back up again
But I still knew in my heart I was never destined to win
Never the best of my friends, left out the rest of my sense
Blinding myself in the end, and I won't do it again
When your anger rages on, just protect what you care about
Try to keep it close, make sure you know it's whereabouts
Slimy mawfuckas never come and try to tear it out
Feel my beating heart? Well it's there
WHY I CARE TO SHOUT!
I feel it beating every time I drink
Even though you tried to stop me when I was up on the brink
When I fell apart in the ER, it gave me time to think
But I fucking ignored the messages that my heart would sing
I felt encouraged, and that petition was worse
But now when I drink Coke, my fucking chest hurts
Ignorance is bliss, and being addicted's a curse
But having people behind you is how you get past the worst
It's the way that I am
And nothing could ever stop me
My heart's over working
It doesn't help with coffee
I'm a failure in my own eyes
I've let down the people that I love the most and that's why
Every night I dream of ways to pay them back when I rhyme
And I've finally done it
This is for them and those who
Feel the same, willing to make amends
Willing to travel to the farthest ends just to prove myself again