Heated

Yeah, I want it
But I don't need it
And now at times
I wish the memories could be deleted
I think about the way
You left me feeling so defeated
You're just another bad decision
That I keep repeating
It's got me heated
Like I'ma be the one to keep the fire stoked
Got some issues
But my condition was never diagnosed
Try and cope
Refocus my vision to kaleidoscope
Only know a few that treated mе the same
When I was brokе

The lack of signal had me disconnected
I'll admit that most my energy was misdirected
I couldn't take responsibility or see the blessing
Now I recognize that it was only my perspective
In the mirror I respect the man I see reflected
Took the weight up off my back and now I'm decompressing
Always begging for a sign but never heed a message
No insurance on my life, I had to repossess it

I've been under the impression
You still think about me
But I don't have any reason
To believe assumptions
I've spent hours in confession
What a waste of effort
Guilt of a criminal
I gave it all and escaped with nothing

I've been under the impression
You still think about me
But I don't have any reason
To believe assumptions
I've spent hours in confession
What a waste of effort
Guilt of a criminal
I gave it all and escaped with nothing