First Steps

[Verse One]
First steps out the door in the daylight
Getting out of bed took all of my might
I just want to go back and not see a face
I stumble down the sidewalk with all of my grace
I grab food from the gas station
The attendant has entirely none of my patience
Coins land in my hand with the pace of my gait
I just stand as they land with her face all irate
Now its off to the basement where twin peaks will just play
I ignore the front door and telephone all day
Say where’d all my friends go though they just stopped trying
I cough once or twice and pretend like I’m dieing
Is it a wish or self fulfilling prophecy
Call myself a rapper but I don’t want anyone to see
I’m not a paradox but maybe I am
Call myself a recluse while looking for a hand

[Verse Two]
I’m the man who wasn’t there
I just cut the hair
Flat top or buzz cut I don’t really care
Walking round the streets like UFO take me
I hope I don’t sleep or that someone will wake me
Get me up shake me down and rise up above the ground
Take me to the canopy and I’m never coming down
Calvin’s magic tree house
No one else is allowed
Fighting aliens all day
Playing for a cheering crowd
Mic in my hand I’ve found my home now
Ice in my hand sitting on my throne now
You can call me king or you can call me sloth now
David stones to sling you can sit and watch now
Meditating on the mountain top
Once I find enlightenment I know I can never stop
Throw it all away just to sit watch it drop
Ignored the author and wrote my own plot