Firework Child

I don't wanna wake up when I sleep tonight
I don't want to feel myself die
I don't want to fear myself anymore
I don't want to feel myself die

I'm catatonic
I'm paralytic
I'm schizophrenically numb

I'm stuck inside it
I'm calling friends in
To tell them that I'm done

I say I don't feel anything
I feel things I feel pain
I feel discomfort in my gender
I feel myself losing my brain

I say I don't wanna feel death
But what do I want to feel
Feel myself in the way that hurts
Feel myself feel real

I'm catatonic
I'm paralytic
I'm schizophrenically numb

I'm stuck inside it
I'm calling friends in
To tell them that I'm done

I'll break your heart
Like I broke my bones
I'll break your heart
Like a broken home

I'm catatonic
I'm paralytic
I'm schizophrenically numb

I'm stuck inside it
I'm calling friends in
To tеll them that I'm done