Everything to Me

I watch you walk away cause I didn't think you'd leave
I thought that you knew that you meant everything to me
I know we get mad and we yell and blow steam
But now you're gone I only see tend you in my dreams
Don't know what to do cause lately I've been lacking passion
Self inflicted pain, just to cause a damn reaction
Telling people not to cut, I'm lying to the masses
Cause I've been in my room with the blade fucking laughing

Now I love the pain, it's evolved to an addiction
Only time my head is straight is off the prescriptions
But the voices in my head tell me keep resisting
So I shed the tears and stare into the distance
Don't know what I'm looking for, but now I know it's hope
And I'm not gonna find that from these pills or the dope
Burned in my emotions with each breath of the smoke
I know that this time, I'll find a better way to cope