Escape [Esc]

[Intro]

(And everyone like has something they do to make the things that's eating them inside go away
No matter how you look at it we're all emotional as fuck
Sometimes we let it pent up or whatever I guess, you physically or emotionally let it out on others or yourself, my poison)

Never planned to escape
Never planned my escape
Never
Had these nightmares yeah
Been having nightmares yeah

[Chorus]

(Never letting go)

Where do you go, just to get it all better?
Heaven shying away, eyes rain with the weather
It's (it's never it's never)
Bliss

Take me to the edge
I never plan to escape
Had enough of the weight
Wait you scared
So near dead
Hungers never fed
I'm tryna stop
Watch me at the top
My time is now

Where do you go just to get it all better?
Heaven shying away, eyes rain with the weather
It's (it's never it's never)
Bliss

[Verse 1]

Run through the door
Always hoping for no more
Shitty situations, but I gotta deal with it no negotiations
Still ill with it , questionable vindications
Do I deserve it all
Or am I meant to fall
Seasons change every time I have an episode
No Lil' John but I feel like I'm boutta get low
Temp' fix to get high, that's another door
Story for another time, one of my many flaws
But we gotta push through what else you gonna do man
Them easy targets were never my aim

(And I've had enough of my shit so I escape through little joys that make me forget I'm me even for a bit
Drinking, excessive sleeping, what have you
It's hell
But
We're all cursed with this life thing so)

Never mind my mistakes
Never mind my mistakes
I look for escapes
I look for escapes

[Chorus]

(Never letting go)

Where do you go, just to get it all better?
Heaven shying away, eyes rain with the weather
It's (it's never it's never)
Bliss

Take me to the edge
I never plan to escape
Had enough of the weight
Wait you scared
So near dead
Hungers never fed
I'm tryna stop
Watch me at the top
My time is now

Where do you go just to get it all better?
Heaven shying away, eyes rain with the weather
It's (it's never it's never)
Bliss

[Verse 2]

And now I'm at the bottom again
I'm life's prey no amen waiting
For the day when
It all feels worth it then again
It's never that evident

Torture myself in all these raps
Beaten down dreams couldn't thrive in a dirt nap
Yeah

Look at me
I'ma need
Fifty shots, yes I'm Curtis, please
Haven't stopped since the birth of me
Steel to the head like a burglary

You have your laughs
I have my glass
Playing cool, you're such an ass

You got your problems with anger
I got my problems with breathing
And I ain't talking asthma
Bitch I been about leaving
Poisoned dry heaving
'Tis the season
Happy days that I'm grieving
Drink it down til it's easy
I'm a heathen
Change one day when hell freezing
Ugh!

(Uhhh
It's whatever haha
There's only so much of myself and all of this I can make phoney escapes from and actually handle until I eventually just...)