Dilemma

[Hook: Ian Stone]
I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head
Been talking with the dead
So it don't matter what you said
Some things will never change
Just put me in the grave

[Verse 1: Ian Stone]
Since the age of thirteen been a screw-up
Got a problem with my life, make a new cut
My mother screaming as I try jumping out the whip
My brother crying, cause his older brother's losing it
Drove me to the mental hospital, Saint Lukes
Force fed pills, stared at walls for most of my youth
At a young age I was always picked on, beat up
Kicked in the face always stepped on
People always laughing at the reject
Became the funny guy that gained your respect
At Eighteen alcohol became my best friend
In no time I was back in the ward again
Twenty-three and I still feel like giving up
Mark, I'm really sorry that we didn't get to talk enough
I was too hard headed till that day came
You may be gone, but your memory will still remain

[Hook: Ian Stone]
I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head
Been talking with the dead
So it don't matter what you said
Some things will never change
Just put me in the grave

[Verse 2: Damien Quinn]
My whole life I just wanted to die
Been tryin to kill myself since the age of nine
Why is happiness is so hard to find
And how can suicide ever cross my mind?
Time after time I wanna cock the nine
Blow my brains out, and leave my troubles behind
I'm blind to the fact that everybody hates me
Even my own mother thinks that I'm crazy
But ain't no fucking pill gonna save me
Or bring back what's left of my sanity
I see your envy has made you an enemy
With the devil's face, and a heart full of jealousy
So here I walk down this road
Cold and alone with no place to call home
I guess I'm on my own but I did it to myself
Maybe these pills will start to help

[Hook: Ian Stone]
I'm schizophrenic hearing voices in my head
Been talking with the dead
So it don't matter what you said
Some things will never change
Just put me in the grave