Dead Within

Your shell has a blind spot / I snuck into the depths of your heart
Do not resist / Let me decipher your mind as if it was art
You’ve forgotten how to form a sincere smile
In detail you remember your tragic past, but you live in denial
Those events led you to lock yourself inside your room
Because you feel the world hates you / And that won’t change anytime soon
When walking you stare at your feet and avoid eye contact
Putting up a shield so it’s harder for you to be attacked
Although your parents are alive they are dead to you
They’re the root of your mistrust and the rest of your issues
The man whose supposed to be your father does unspeakable things
While your unfaithful mother pretends she doesn’t hear you scream
You’re fluent in the language of intentional verbal abuse
Cause your family has learned it and they direct it towards you
Nightly you cry miserably in the corner, or on your bed
As you try various methods to lose the voices in your head

Drag that blade across your skin
Revive yourself with pain cause you’re already dead within

Each incision tells a different story
Each drop of blood represents fading glory
The number of scars explain how close you are to giving in
If you quit / You let your enemies win

You get angry easily, and feel depressed whenever you’re awake
To relieve all of your pain, you consume as many pills as you can take
You rarely have an appetite / And find it difficult to sleep
You’re paranoid and always feel the hand of a creep
People disturb you by showing any kind of concern
You defend yourself automatically and tell everyone to burn
You claim you’re cruel and callous / But it is only an act
You have a conscious / But it seems like it’s no longer intact

Drag that blade across your skin
Revive yourself with pain cause you’re already dead within

Each incision tells a different story
Each drop of blood represents fading glory
The number of scars explain how close you are to giving in
If you quit / You let your enemies win

Don’t settle for such torment / You’re broken, but should realize
You have unlimited potential / Don’t assume I’m telling you lies
Torture me as you please / There’s nothing I can’t endure
I’ll see to it that you become mature and pure
Insult me, guilt me, threaten me, and make false statements
You can try to hide it, but you require my attention
Sometimes you pretend to ignore me although my words are being received
And when you yell goodbye at me, you also whisper "Don’t leave"

Your hate for me isn’t real / You’re just confused and afraid
Honestly you trust me / But don’t want to be betrayed
My sight shows what lies ahead / Your future can be bright
The only obstruction / Is your past swallowing the light
Should the light be completely consumed / I fear the worst
You’ll block me out permanently / Then your heart will burst
I apologize / I couldn’t stop you from giving in
Now like rain I’m flooding the ground / Cause your enemies win