Dark Thoughts

[Verse 1]:
Wake up half asleep, tryna still dream
And I’m looking at the clock ticking
Thinking about life and what it means
Every second feels like a long minute
My family tell me I ain’t with it
They keep telling me I should chill it
Life so fast, you blink and you miss it
Looking at my puzzle, what’s missing
I’ll never know until it’s gone forever
I’m in the hospital bed, I won’t get better
I hope that we can weather this weather
Better as a team but not together
We in combat like we in the nether
Realm, I pilot this shit at the helm
If I could, my soul I would sell
So I can get on TV and I can tell
My kids I made it, grandpas famous
Life’s too short for me to live nameless
But it’s the pain that will make us
Then God will come and take us
It’s the good moments that’ll break us
I never told you that I’d make changes
I could make money, it would change us
These are the moments that made us
These are the moments that fade us
And every pill I take is more faded
Life is black and white, cell shaded
We all high school kids, downgraded
We in a soft cell, love is tainted
You told me to wait, and I still waited
She telling me that I’m the greatest
I told her it was lie, so blatant
Every day I spend here, so wasted
Got lift debts, I ain’t paid them
How many pills have I taken
Just to feel like I can escape them
Dark thoughts, they’re all making
Me nervous, making me paranoid
So lost in my head, I’m in a paravoid
With this paranoise, I’m just annoyed

[Verse 2]:
Breathing in cigarettes just so that I can get the high again
Wanna make you touch the sky again, feel alive again
You push me in the deep end, but I’d dive right in
The scariest part about my head, there’s no lighting
Everyday is a war within myself, but I’m done fighting it
Done silencing it, the voice in my head is saying shit
If you see me smile, it probably means I’m faking it
If you see prescription bags, just know I’m taking it
You see a clock running time, know I’m wasting it
I follow my dreams, but my nightmares are chasing them
Every night I fall asleep, I see that demon face again
Every time I write my thoughts, I keep changing them
Rearranging them, like writing poems on the walls
What’s the point of dreaming high, if you just fall
They say if you ever get the chance, take the call
What do I do when I reach my dreams, I done it all
I’ve done it all, nah, I ain’t ever reach that point
What’s the point, if all your life you hear is white noise
I’m trying to speak up but I’ve lost my voice
Speaking too loud cause the church bells ringing
No one cares about you until you found a meaning
No one cares about you when you’re say you dreaming
No one cares unless you’re hanging off the ceiling
Nah, that’s not true, outside of my own personal view
Everyone cares about me, I can always feel it
If I keep going, keep moving, I can always dream it
I know I get a bit dark, but I like to speak my feeling
What’s the point of lyrics if you ain’t even feel it
When you listen to my music, just know I’m the realest