Bullet In A Gun

[Intro]:
Panic
Voices that I can’t manage
Panic
Tryna ignore all of the damage
Panic
Slept one day, now I can’t have it
Panic
Take my heart out just so i can stab it
Panic
Slowing me down like it’s bad traffic
Panic
Only things I love are my bad habits
Panic
We’re going down a hole, like a rabbit
Panic

[Verse 1]:
I don’t even care about all the damage that I’ve done
When ever shit gets tough, I pull up a loaded gun
To my forehead, pull the trigger but I left the bullets
My doctor calls me up, telling me that I should cool it
Anything he can say, just so he knows that he stalls it
Whatever makes him feel better, this isn’t forever
Took too long to sever, but in the end I’ll just text her
Karma, getting in my way again, until the end
Where my death is bliss, and I look up to my wish
And see that I never accomplished it, that’s shit
Throw all of this shit onto the wall, see what sticks
And I’m writing down all of my names on this list
Like a jester, but we arent in any town of Salem
I hope when you come to me, I’m a safe haven
If anyone is hurting me, you can name and shame them
I don’t like things staying the same, but I don’t like changing

[Chorus]:
Breathing, this pain is getting to me
Think I need to relax, before I drop it
I know that you’re regretting me
But I’ll take this back, before I stop it
Know that I’m not with it, I promise
That I’m okay, just need some space
Got all these tears on my face
I can’t take it, I can’t take it anymore
So if you leave, please shut the door
Because before, I go, you know
That I’m leaving the limelight for you
That I’m stealing the time for you
That I’m feeling this ain’t right for you
And I’m struggling with this message
So when you get it, please forget it
Make sure all your friends text it
Chain mail it out to everyone
Because when I die
I’ll be the bullet in the gun
I’ll be the bullet in the gun

[Verse 2]:
You’re telling me the feelings ain’t there, so be it
Don’t you dare take my fucking pills away, I need it
Don’t tell me that he isn’t really there, I can see it
They always told me that seeing is believing
So just have some faith, because I know I have hope
Nope, nah, hope isn’t my thing, I prefer pessimism
Optimism, has never been in my blood, I like that
I might snap, but don’t complain when you caused it
When I start to see the cliff side, I will floor it
You tell me to speak about my issues, then store it
The past was a movie, and I was the one who saw it
This shit is my art, and you know that I’ll draw it
But I’m no artist, I just paint shit all over my house
And when in doubt, I’ll take away all of my emotions
In the motions, of deleting my social life, that’s nice
I tried, to play it cool for you, to play the nice guy
But I lied, and now every moment gets me closer
And I sit here and write, just so you can notice
I’m in the side of your view, but still so in focus
When I look back to my songs, why have I wrote this
Then go back to stage one, and I remember
It all goes back, to the time in hospital, December
When I got split into two, two feelings, two beings
Why am I someone that you feel you believe in
The plot thickens, I can tell the story gets deepened
Parts of the narrative missing, because I delete them
When you go back to the start, you won’t need them
They’re all in the brain, kept so I can never change
I just adapt, overcome all of my own problems
Because when I write my music, I can make profit
When someone asks me for my brain, I lost it
The voices are getting louder, I hope that I stop it

[Outro]:
Panic
Voices that I can’t manage
Panic
Tryna ignore all of the damage
Panic
Slept one day, now I can’t have it
Panic
Take my heart out just so i can stab it
Panic
Slowing me down like it’s bad traffic
Panic
Only things I love are my bad habits
Panic
We’re going down a hole, like a rabbit
Panic