Curse of Creativity

[verse 1]

I used to write in diaries
And then I started writing music
Now my life is recorded in its entirety
Tiny wires etched with sonic ink that never fades
Constantly depending on my hard drive to never break

Think it’s strange
When we were kids our journals were secret
Harry Potter notepads and handmade locks to keep it safe
Now I’m advertising my past like I’m passing leaflets
Out to random strangers asking them to watch me be a freak on stage

And that’s the magic and the curse of creativity
You get to treat your demons but you need to wear them visibly
Weave in all your misery with deep poetic imagery
And willfully bare your soul, the limit is your dignity

Let them into private worlds with something so public
Open my veins with every song promoted and published
Take all the things that make me sick to my stomach and
Shove it into the crowd in hopes that somebody will love it

[Chorus]

And maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
For a chance to attract you

Maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
Just to have you

[verse 2]

I remember when I first saw you play
And your electrifying stage presence took my breath away
Your music spoke to me more than my words could ever say
Ever since then I’ve been thinking about you everyday

I started looking into your discography
To get a glimpse into your thoughts and ideology
Thoughtfully articulated raw and brutal honesty
I felt like I was reading your autobiography

With every track I was exploring your brain
Inhabiting your every pleasure and absorbing your pain
I know that all your other listeners have felt like this too
But I’m privileged to have shared something special with you

And it’s because you cut your veins and all of the above
Sounds insane, but I think I’m musically in love
And you should know that I don’t like that word
Which I mentioned in a song that you might have heard

[Chorus]

And maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
For a chance to attract you

Maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
Just to have you

[bridge]
What do you do when your most secret intent
Is also the thing you share to your social media friends
What do you do when your confessional medium’s
The subject of public scrutiny cause everyone’s seeing it

Could I
Learn to live with it the way you do
And all the other ones who may have paved the way for you
I know you well enough to say that this was made for you
No bravado, no pretense, just the naked truth for you

[Chorus]
And maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
For a chance to attract you

Maybe that’s you
Maybe that’s who I dedicate this track to
Maybe that’s you
Don’t mean to distract you
But I would wrack all my brains in a rap
Just to have you