Crystal Clear

Now it's crystal clear
You never really understood the reason
I was coming was to
Bounce and disappear, but I did it
And I'm proud that I found it in the clouds
But what about princess pure
Oh princess pure she's a mixed up gear
In a clogged up engine
God's addicted to calm withdrawal
And this I fear, this I fear
You wanna talk about fear
I can tell you 'bout fear
A little itty bitty something
Like what's in here
I get excited and open up
Think I might have found something that's never been touched
Then of course hmm I get too close
Get burned trying to shut it
But it just won't close
So I suppose it's time for me to learn another lesson
That I wouldn't have known if I didn't adhere
To the voice that I hear In the back of my head
When I'm all on my own on a road that twists and turns
Now this concern is already old and frozen stiff
All is know it's a gift to serve the distance within
What I hope and observe is a moment
Away from going a way and poking a hole
I hope that that it works
I hope that it bursts everything apart
Until I finally understands the reason that it hurts
And hold it in the dark
Cuz the minute that we understand the reason that we're hear
Is to focus on the spark that ignited the light that we chase every single second of the day
The reflection we make will make us
One with the stars

And it won't seem so far away-
Almost so close
Distance is an enemy
With no heart cope with the image of a mess to clean
This is not fair
Share this with almost everything
Picture, now float

Who are you to tell me
I should go with the flow of life
When I know there's a little boy
Who would die for a little bowl of rice
No one loves him
And those he loves
Show him how to fight
So he grows up, lonely and frightened
All he knows is destruction right
Roll with the punches
Nothing's right
It's all sideways croaked and cracked
Tangled twisted
Around angles and made to collapse
Hating my past is a mistake I'd hate to regret
Maybe death is just the way that we behave when we're dead

But I'm not
So I got a lot of shock and I'm not ready to give up
No sir, not yet
Not until I figure out the reason that we sit and watch
It all blow up in our face
Instead making it end
Stop this conflict
Constant process over and over and over again
Till no one is friends
And no one believes we can open our flesh
Hop over the fence
Blow in the wind
Control our own fate
Nothing's gonna change
When we show no pain
Hold it all in
So it won't go away
Must dream bigger
Must stay awake
Trust me please
You're not ugly disbelief
Someone loves me
Convince me what it is I'm running from
Cuz you're the only one I know who knows
I know I'm not okay