CREATURE / ihaveaname

[Part 1: CREATURE]

I just feel like shit cuz you don’t speak to me
Recently addicted, admitted to you but secretly
Unhealthily committed, I visit my phone repeatedly
It seems to be that effort in this shit is split unequally
Maybe it’s my history for wicked emotion
And my misery left me bitterly, timid and broken
Maybe I just hate my life so much I wanna be in yours
You see my type is you and I’m a fool, I’m down on all fours
And you’re not mine but for some reason I just want you to be
And I’m not fine cuz I’m believin’ that you are possibly
And I don’t mind if you don’t mind, I’ll try to make that shit work
And I won’t mind if I get hurt because it’s you I prefer
I get possessive and jealous of that what’s not even mine
I think no text back is a message and a giant red sign
I was dwelling in the past but now ahead of my time
Cuz I wanna move forward, but you’re in back of my mind

I got some things to do but I don’t wanna do em
I got some things to say but I won’t ever say em
To your face

[Part 2: ihaveaname]

I have a fuckin’ name
But you don’t give a fuck enough to put a face to it huh
You can pretend and shake my hand, I know you’re fakin’ it huh
You cannot point me out in a crowd that I’m stayin’ in huh

I have a fuckin’ name but Louis isn’t relevant right?
Isn’t that kid all dressed black so chapped and negative right?
He’s always cryin’ ‘bout some shit he did 3 years ago right?
He’s always whinin’ ‘bout a bitch, he’s so despicable right?

I have a fuckin’ name but we both know that you’ll never call me
I have a fuckin’ brain but sometimes it won’t work with my body
These mindless routines and habits got me agreein’ my talents
Were always absent, seeking opinions so I feel fuckin’ valid

I have a fuckin’ name and I hate it
I hate myself and my identity and how I portray it
I wanna change it, and bitch I will not fuckin’ replace it
There’s no other fucker like me, but still somehow you’re mistaken, bitch