Contempt

I was damned to repeat it
Temerity leaking and left behind
Miles out in the burning sea
Where my virtue stayed afloat
My summer came, I let it slip
And now regret tugged at my coat

In spite of the seed I chose to grow
When you smiled, I'd reconcile with all disdain my body showed
And with pretentious, tired eyes
I would look into the sea
And long a crown that never fit

I would not admit defeat
Had it gone differently
II could have been a king!
Now contrition curled my skin
Does it amuse you?
To watch a fool like me?
Walk down a fishing line stretched 'cross a crater of sulfur and failure?

Alive, but never I'd felt so dead!
That beast, she groaned inside my head
To be set free
Ripping flesh from bone
Her watchful eyes had been exposed

Salvation was unknown
To me while I was trapped in that wolf skin
This mind, o' it was already forsaken
And I breathed out flames and lies
And lies!
Let me demonstrate the lack of faith I'd obtained

True self, like a diamond
Was hiding and covered in soot
Underneath mirrored mountains
You squirmed and you shook
Such life should never be contained
So you claw, and you bite, and you scream!

I was made
To show the world how much a failure
Could grow and learn from his mistakes
Instead of rotting in their wake
All the glory, all the fame
Could never bring me consolation
Forever feed this fire
That calmly vampires and erodes itself to only bring contempt