Gaustad has been meaning to write a song like “Boy Behind the Mask,” one discussing coming to terms with their gender identity, for years. Now, the musician is ready to share the track — and also the emotional video, which premieres Thursday with Rolling Stone.
“It wasn’t until recently that I foun...
[Verse 1]
I've always been obsessed with starting over
Moving on but never getting closure
Going mad but keeping my composure
'Cause God forbid they see the bipolar
Feeling like I'm splitting two Identities
And they're both getting the best of me
My own minds playing tricks on things
Puppeting my strings, I give up
[Pre-Chorus]
When my eyes are wired shut
Is it then where I can love
The both of us enough
[Chorus]
I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Starring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask
[Verse 2]
Numbing all the thoughts with magic potions
Anything to feed my oxytocin
The levels always low, but no one ever knows
'Cause I'm the master of emotion
It's exhausting trying to hide
The things that I don't like
The parts I've kept inside
Are so ready for explosion
[Chorus]
I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Starring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask
[Pre-Chorus]
When my eyes are wired shut
Is it then where I can love
The both of us enough
[Chorus]
I've tried to wash away these feelings
But something about it's been so freeing
There's a boy behind the mask
And I've never let him in
Been playing dress up for a lifetime
Starring in a role that was never mine
There's a girl who finally asked
The boy behind the mask
Boy Behind The Mask was written by Gaustad.
Boy Behind The Mask was produced by Gaustad & Andy Seltzer.
Gaustad released Boy Behind The Mask on Fri Jun 28 2024.