Hometown Hospice

[Verse 1]
I lived for your permission
I shifted my opinions
If you asked then I commissioned
Anything you'd ever need
Made it a priority
You trade me like an option
To buy or sell at auction
This love is laced with caution
Tape around my mouth again
In case I try to turn you in

[Pre-Chorus]
No one's more convoluted
No one's more inconclusive
Drunk on your own delusions
You're an optical illusion

[Chorus]
Don't make me disappear again
Is that what you wanted?
Put on a show for all your friends
Does it make you feel honest?
'Cause I ran and went off to college
And you stayed in hometown hospice
So don't make me disappear again
'Cause this time I'll be the one to end
End it all

[Verse 2]
I won't come home for Christmas
So please take me off your wishlist
You saw my mom at Mrs. Aaron's
My old neighbor's house
And couldn't help but ask about
If I was doing well
If I'd be back in town
If I was seeing anybody or anything else
She said I moved away
And that I loved LA
I lost a bunch of weight the second I threw you away

[Pre-Chorus]
No one's more convoluted
No one's more inconclusive
Drunk on your own delusions
You're an optical illusion

[Chorus]
Don't make me disappear again
Is that what you wanted?
Put on a show for all your friends
Does it make you feel honest?
'Cause I ran and went off to college
And you stayed in hometown hospice
So don't make me disappear again
'Cause this time I'll be the one to end

[Bridge]
End it all
And make you fall back in love
Just to lose it all
And make you watch as I go

[Chorus]
Don't make me disappear again
Is that what you wanted?
Put on a show for all your friends
Does it make you feel honest?
'Cause I ran and went off to college
And you stayed in hometown hospice
So don't make me disappear again
'Cause this time I'll be the one to end