April (Cecilia! You Are Being Manic Again!)

I'm a goddamn catastrophe
I fuck up everything around me
Cause I'm jealous
Yeah, I'm selfish
So what did you fucking expect from me
Darling, this is all there is

And I'm always terrified
That you’re leaving me behind
Insecurity is eating me alive
And I know it’s just a lie
When you act like it’s all fine

Now I'm leaving home
Never say goodbye
Think about a future you and me could try
I never wanna be alone

All the memories
This will leave behind
Summer's come and by
Just another lie they’ll find
Will you please just listen to me talk
I’m singing a song

I can’t deny
I’m acting a little obsessive
That doesn’t mean you can treat me like I’m fucking toxic
I know I’m fucking up
You think I haven’t thought about it before?
I’m just tired of being treated like my way of loving is wrong

And I'm always terrified
That you’re leaving me behind
Insecurity is eating me alive
And I know it’s just a lie
When you act like it’s all fine

Throw it all away
Memory of those days
Can’t even remember how you used to say
(Humming)

That’s it, Cecily
Nothing to amend
Summer isn’t over
Just you in the end
It’s just the end of my weekend
And you're never coming home again