All By Myself

All i ever wanted in life, is a fucking friend
Someone to depend on when my life, reaches an end
But instead, I was sent to fend during my descend
All by myself, so I picked up the pen, and tried to end
All the bullshit, making me depressed and repressed
From everyone, I tell myself I am blessed, when at best
I'm just good enough to compete with local rappers
I hope to shatter your mind, but I feel it don't matter
How hard I try sometimes cause my mind says I'm whacker
Than Chronic Ry, so I get high, phone dry, no chatter
Between me and anyone, I'm just left with my thoughts
My pen, pad, this heavy blunt, trying to find a spot
In this game, you diss, I would run, cause I was taught
By myself to destroy anyone dissing my shit
So I deploy rhymes to annoy and make you cry bitch
And I enjoy it, cause I got nothing to lose, so try and defy THIS

I do all this rap shit, all by myself
Pick up the pen, strap in, all by myself
Getting all these stacks big, without no help
I do my attacking, without no help
Talking all this smack bitch! With no one else
I'm a lonely white trash kid, with no one else
Doin all this rap shit, without no help
Doing all this rap shit, all by myself

But I don't need no support to kill this fuck in beat
I speak free with no consort, it's chill, but trust in me
If you impede, I'll distort and drill you, shut in these
Fuckers out of my life, so as you mock what I write
Think: Do you know strife? do you fight each night to gain might
And respect? Do you know what it's like to pick up the mic
And know some people spite, and only listen to strike
You, I'm chasing my dream, I'd like support, not a fight
But these fuckers making fun, and just suckers taking none
They can't take from me, I've had my fucks forsaken hun
Because I suffer shaping puns, cover taking some
Is ideal cause I'm a fucking gunner facing front
Aflutter waiting from birth to shutter hating sons
And I've waited way to long to stop playing around
And start saying astounding raps, I'm not paying an ounce
To those hating about, cause I'm proud saying my sound, cause I

I do all this rap shit, all by myself
Pick up the pen, strap in, all by myself
Getting all these stacks big, without no help
I do my attacking, without no help
Talking all this smack bitch! With no one else
I'm a lonely white trash kid, with no one else
Doin all this rap shit, without no help
Doing all this rap shit, all by myself

Since I was young, awkward and shy is how I've acted
So I'd just comply and try to keep from attractin'
Any attention cause my mind can't buy a fraction
Of content, it's denied, fried inside, then extracted
So I'd just keep to myself, I was afraid to
Speak my thoughts, cause I'd weaken if what I said, they viewed
Cheap or meek, I'd critique no one, then I one day knew
I reached my peak, so I seeked for weeks, 'til I made new
Goals for myself which added more meaning to my life
My old soul was pulled, now no more beatings, no more strikes
At me without a full strike back, sleeping less each night
Cause I'm not whole without rap, I'm feigning for the lime light
I work so hard forming bars, chasing my fucking dream
No friends, just scars and bizarre marks, you ain't touching me
I start each song pouring my heart I got nothing Be-
Leave me, I got my spar and bars, and need no fucking team Cause I

I do all this rap shit, all by myself
Pick up the pen, strap in, all by myself
Getting all these stacks big, without no help
I do my attacking, without no help
Talking all this smack bitch! With no one else
I'm a lonely white trash kid, with no one else
Doin all this rap shit, without no help
Doing all this rap shit, all by myself